I speak to Pat every morning. She is my angel. I tell her things so to purge the thoughts out of my head. Thoughts I would’ve drank over. When I feel weak and vulnerable, I pick up the phone and call another addict so I can prevent slips. Since voicemail is realty, I call until I get someone live until the moment passes. I do this when I am feeling vulnerable but I also do this proactively three times per day. I write down things that are abstinent threatening. I tell people before I go in to a tough situation and ask for help and guidance to try to stay ahead of the turmoil. It is not perfect. But it is working. I also provide service if/when I can to others.
I read everything I can, from the Big Book, 24hr, to any of the books in my personal library. I try every day to be a blessing to someone. I attend one to two meetings per week and I work the steps in a 12 step program. I do quiet time so my higher power can speak to me. I do this when I first wake up and again during the day when I need to. I am stronger than the voices in my head now. This took some time. This program makes me powerful against the voices and negative thinking. I am well past the pink cloud and I am still learning to handle this.