I met my sponsor Judy in 2008. She was sent from God to help me. She promised a mental shift would take place.   She said…YOU WILL UNDERSTAND WHY YOU’RE HURTING YOURSELF …So you no longer want to do it.  You can either go to another vice or address the issues and fix the situation a little each day.  It’s you and you…not you and a shrink, it’s you and you pondering it…it’s real.  She helped me go through a metamorphosis and helped me become aware of things that I was blind to. She helped me evolve. Before I met her I used a substance to deal with lies, chaos, deprivation, self-loathing thoughts, fear and bad relationships.